a moment of thought..

just five minutes ago, i still had this feeling that i just had to be a big part in the life of the ones that i love. However, i just realised that i am not. I will never be completely in their lives just as they'll never be completely immersed in mine. Still, it doesnt change the fact that i love them. I always had this feeling that i wanted to make them happy and i still do. Only, i did it the wrong way. I use to think that by my achievements, i'll make them proud and its mostly what they'll want from me anyway. Although thats part of what they want from me, thats not all of what they want from me. Dont get me wrong, they're not that over-achievement type of people. They want me to have my achievements and have a great childhood and golden teenage years as well. They fully understand that during this crucial time of my life, i'd face challenges and decisions that will shape the course of my life. I am truly grateful of their concern for my well being, future and self-development. The advises and wisdom that they part onto me will never be forgotten as they will stay in my heart to remind me of who i was, who i am and who i can be. So that i'll never forget my past to keep me focused on being who i will be.