Im just feeling so dried up at this moment. I want to run away and not care at all about whats happening there. I don't wanna take on that responsibility. I don't want to make an effort to make it better. I don't wanna do it.

i have always dreamed that i'd be where i am now. and wow.. i had so many plans. practice this way. do it that way. how to make them cooperate. how to look good in that post.

I had it all in my head. and thats just where it's stuck.