as the exams are drawing near, i find myself having more and more emotional breakdowns. often set off by the smallest things. the abnormally normal condition is probably due to slight stress caused by upcoming exams, overdue pms and not to mention the tiredness of non stop classes. sounds like im exaggerating? Obviously.

i miss blogging now that i can say stuff properly. i wish that this world is free from all negative things. well, i dont have a magic lamp that has a genie that says, "Your wish is my command." but i do have a God who wants the same wish as i do. But this little wish of mine, as simple as it seems, might not be achieved in the near future as long as the devil still reigns on earth(for now). people are daft and ignorant, including me. most of us see the world through a pin hole when we could have easily have view the world as its best in a panoramic view. i view my world through a hole the diameter of my hair and probably a hole as big as big as a 5 cent coin at best. i need my hubble telescope. maybe a telescope in space sounds good too.

i need more positive influence in my life. from every aspect in sight. i cant do things on my own, im bound to mess up. well, i guess i already did. i need advices. i desprately need them.

i need my life guard.

im done going through life as a zombie but im too lazy to break out from the chain. i knw i need to do something about it. my excuse is universal; im lazy. and as someone has put it, "its human nature." i want to live as a person who exudes passion for everything. i think i was one before. it somehow got dimmed. what about you?