you never know the regrets that i hold in my heart
that i've gone against the councel of the Helper
that i've made a fool of myself
is there no way out from this miserable shame?
is there no turning back?
let this be a lesson.
a lesson learned.
let this feeling fade, let it be gone.
for it tortures but brings no meaning.
it is meaningless, like shoving smoke.
longing for things that you cannot have is none but idiotic.
does it help to quench the thirst for a longing heart?
i doubt, yes i do.
dont let me remember, i want to forget it.
let it be wiped out of my memory forever more.