was reading blogs tadi.. came to eera's la plk.. katanya sudah ada braces. i was like.. "waitt..who'se blog is this??" terkejut. whoaa.. eera ada braces :D

every word can make sense
but every word can also be fantasy

as i sit in front of this computer of mine, i feel light headed whenever i close my eyes. i like that feeling. i feel so relaxed. however, theres also a tinge of tiredness. to be everything and nothing. partly, i can say that i am everything that i wanted to be since my ever growing list of 'ambitions'. i now find all this unfulfilling and childish. i have every physical thing i want now, yet i feel so empty. is this how a godless fool feels like?

all these posts and titles means so little now. i use to think that being a leader of anysort is my main aim for everything that im in, mainly koko. to think that the fame and aknowledgement is the weapon that i have to show everyone of what im capable of. im not jacking my own ass, but i have all of these. yet i dont know who i really am. i dont know where did this heavy weight of burden came from. i have forsaken my pillar of strength. my one and only, my all.

now i feel every breath
now i taste every tear
now i remember every loss
submitting my memory to it
nothing will ever feel as empty as this


i will not forget how easily i forget. i cannot afford to lose You all over again, although i've said and done that times and times before. who am i that i dare to forget You? who am i've tried to replace u with countless 'gods' before You? now i can see that You are my one and only, you are my all.