sleepless nights..

sigh..sometimes i still catch myself being childish i.e being jealous. I seem to have this disease since time begun.. This is the result of being spoiled by my parents. I got most of the things i want and i use to live with the concept that if the things were mine, no one else is supposed to touch it. Unless of course, if they'd ask properly. This spoiled behaviour of mine will kill me, i know. So, im trying to change for my own good as well as the other around me. I hate it when ppl do thing without telling me coz it feels like as if i wasnt important to them. Im trying to change that too.. I have to realize that the world doesnt revolve around me and that their lives will not always have me in it. There are some times when a person has to be alone..u know? Sometimes friendships break off coz i didnt work hard enough for it to stay connected. Sometimes ppl leave coz i wasnt sensitive enough to know what they'd like me to do and what they'd rather not want me to do. I hate the fact that we have to work hard to get what we really want and things that are pure. Things that come easily are usually things that wont last for long.

To hate u must first love. If u hate someone without loving them first, then u're hating them because u're just insecure.U're scared. U're afraid. Im tired of hating people..it takes a lot to forgive them afterwards.. that was a very valuable lesson. Its immature to hate. Maturity comes with a broad chest to forgive. Well, who am i to say?

Love is like heaven but it hurts like hell? Not if u let it. Of course it'll hurt one time or another but dont think about it too much and it'll go away. I know it sometimes fun to wallow in self-pity but it wont be fun if u fall into depression. If u dont want to start liking a person, just dont think about them. Whenever they pop into ur mind, just say goodbye and think about something else, ice cream for example=)

owh ya.. the following is something random but i just wanna blog bout it.. haha..

'Brides and grooms shouldnt meet before their wedding'<-- its very stupid. If they were not suppose to meet before their wedding, why do they go dating in the first place? I think the tradition for this is because in those times, marriges were arranged. So, young brides and grooms might not meet till their wedding day. Right? I guess the parents wanted to do a love-at-first-sight thing. Haha.. Hopefully divorce rates werent high at those times.. Hopefully divorces are not their minds at all.

I've once read this article, this widow lady i think. She said that she had married her husband for xx years. A very long time. Of course, there were times when they did disagree but divorce was never on their minds. Things just worked out on their own.