tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63670617572373347892024-03-14T08:55:56.045+08:00The Spoon's Forkwhen all you own belongs to Someone elsezkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.comBlogger304125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-48852485994669414522010-05-01T19:11:00.004+08:002010-05-02T15:10:23.223+08:00what a day...i love you much=)<br /><br />Had band this morning. Then went to mv to catch a movie with the gang. Guess which one?<br /><br />Toy's Story 1 & 2.<br /><br />I realised that I cant remember the Disney stories that i use to watch as a kid. Its not that i dont remember which ones that I've watched, I cant remember the contents. The storyline, the characters, the meaning. Haha.. I find that they actually have a lot of meaning for a kid's show. Maybe this parts are meant for the parents. Or for people like us, kids that watch it again when we've developed our brains more.zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-51619344833267068672010-04-24T20:58:00.002+08:002010-04-25T20:33:18.128+08:00Drama has come and gone. Congrats 5U, you guys deserve it=] Mai, im so so proud of you:)<br /><br /><br />The whole journey for me was quite rocky. Last minute props, crazy arrangements, costume havoc. One word; WALIAU. The whole process of writing the script was very long. Started to think about the storyline since December but nothing solid came up. Finally decided to use existing talents in our class and wrote a story revolving these talents. I'm sorry. I gave you guys a crappy script. I'm absolutely sure that you guys could do wayy much better with another scriptwriter.<br /><br />Some advice for the form 4s. Start writing you scripts, the earlier the better. Find an uncommon story. Don't go with the normal stuff; shallow love stories especially.zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-80544464087727557132010-04-17T21:32:00.002+08:002010-04-17T21:39:52.732+08:00Heng Sze Kay got baptised on the 17th of April 2010=)<br /><br />i love you guys!<br /><br />Its quite awesome how everything turned out tonight. Both my parents came to church and i just pray that something would be planted into their hearts. I love you guys very very much:) if i were to die just so that they can be saved, i would. God, may Your work be done..zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-54657991139568388592010-04-07T20:35:00.002+08:002010-04-07T20:54:18.760+08:00A bit overdue but here it isGood Friday was awesome indeed. Jofan and i went out on an adventure:) read more about it <a style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 102, 0);" href="http://mejournals.com/speak/2010/04/02/ku-rasa-bahagia/">here</a>. I'm finally starting to believe that the small things that we do sometimes can do wonders even without us realizing it. Before we head out, I was kindda freaking out the night before. What if things didn't go well? What if all that we planned, turns out to be something really stupid when we really thought it was amazing? What if this, what if that.<br /><br />Omtot. All the What Ifs.<br /><br />I really really did felt weird at first. We didn't do much for the first 20 minutes or so with me being so disorganized most of the time. But after some heartfelt prayer, we set off.<br /><br />We were looking for beggers but there weren't many actually at first. Oh, well. We met some cobblers (one of them was real funny i tell ya), hawkers, a few beggars and even a homeless lady. We bought them some burgers but I know its never enough. We can help their physical hunger but what about the spiritual?<br /><br />I went back to Pasar Seni area the other day and she's still there. What else can we help her with?<br /><br />I slowly realize the things that i did really made an impact, either on the people that help was given or on the people around me. Jofan's really enthusiastic about doing it again and his enthusiasm is spreading. Now, more people are gonna join us the next time. I wonder where the holy spirit would bring us?<br /><br />I love You=)zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-27298362847322275482010-03-25T18:42:00.003+08:002010-03-25T18:55:24.730+08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUa5e1skR0h2o_mpjmtLHOr5F5jWhm3ghIdTgdpWSH7wF6xs6KS_OdwhOJCs4WsZ4T2BLcH_gNyYlaKR2q1RtZy5TFOYJWN82giaBQEi00Tefj-U1v7uQNOavyJkK0Iq_Jjbjphe5tc9M/s1600/ragingquiet.jpg"><img style="display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 223px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUa5e1skR0h2o_mpjmtLHOr5F5jWhm3ghIdTgdpWSH7wF6xs6KS_OdwhOJCs4WsZ4T2BLcH_gNyYlaKR2q1RtZy5TFOYJWN82giaBQEi00Tefj-U1v7uQNOavyJkK0Iq_Jjbjphe5tc9M/s320/ragingquiet.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5452521622109521202" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Have been meaning to blog about this book for some time now. Its quite nice. If you're looking for a heartwarming read, this is it. But there's mild 18sx.<br /><br />This is one book where you shouldn't judge it by its cover:)zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-31123215796962635592010-03-19T23:36:00.003+08:002010-03-19T23:52:43.870+08:00<h3 class="GenericStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}">people precieve freedom as having all the choices in the world but sometimes, to obtain true freedom, some choices has to be given up.</h3>***<br /><br />God, bring me back to You, least i come crawling back. My walk has not been great with You lately. I've let myself sidetrack. I've gone back to my old cycles. But i know i have to learn. Learn to get out of those cycles and to focus on You. Yea, i can't pocket You.. You're so much more greater than that. You're better than all those sunsets that i love, all the best people that i miss, all those books that i enjoy reading. You're better, more beautiful, most amazing.<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/VKx_KlUUhPE&hl=en_US&fs=1&"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/VKx_KlUUhPE&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Learning To Fall</span></span><span style="font-weight: bold;"> </span><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">-This Beautiful Republic</span><br />I've heard it said a million times<br />That I should hold on tight to Jesus<br />But I took this road so far from home<br />And distance came between us<br /><br />When I walked away, I knew one day<br />I'd need Your grace<br /><br />So now You'll find me on my knees<br />Surrendering<br />Cause I know that I'm really not so strong<br />And now, I'm done fighting for control<br />Oh, You can have this life<br />That I've been holding for so long<br />I'm learning to fall<br />Let my world crumble<br /><br />You ran so fast to rescue me<br />While I was barely breathing<br />You picked me up, You touched my face<br />And I began to see more clearly<br /><br />Though I'm such a disgrace, You still forgave<br />Your love remains<br /><br />Take me as an offering<br />I surrender everything<br />No more living without You<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size:78%;">Jofan, thanks for finding another beautiful song:)</span>zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-82727922875556679982010-03-14T18:58:00.001+08:002010-03-14T18:58:24.392+08:00<div xmlns="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDubqLE5XagsXD4fZLbKT2zAxvfib0EFxnqkh-QVdoTA31C41eixRPvUlG2kJ1HRusTbzW9GPzZYn_MLyQVTQkIs83n2fNF-QCHU0ldqwX1Y7KbKmOD2lb5FQVIbbl23uvbF3JMLyaH6w/s1600-h/image-upload-17-702676.jpg"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDubqLE5XagsXD4fZLbKT2zAxvfib0EFxnqkh-QVdoTA31C41eixRPvUlG2kJ1HRusTbzW9GPzZYn_MLyQVTQkIs83n2fNF-QCHU0ldqwX1Y7KbKmOD2lb5FQVIbbl23uvbF3JMLyaH6w/s320/image-upload-17-702676.jpg"/></a><br /><span/><br /></div>zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-33132601125820951752010-03-08T09:19:00.003+08:002010-03-08T09:32:07.195+08:00Stand Outi like the video on<a style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 102, 0);" href="http://mejournals.com/speak/2010/03/05/yeahh/"> jofan's</a> page, Britt Nicole's Stand Out. I knw that maybe a gazillion people have already blogged about this but like he said, it means a lot. About the video itself, i like the simplicity of it. Of how nothing is made in a studio, its on the streets, where Jesus should be know. I like that she's put real people on video, people dont hide behind an inch of make up. Real people who's got kids and problems and tears. People who needs a Bible, prayer or just a hug.<br /><br />She set out with a right heart. A heart seeking for broken people.zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-7498914690767978042010-03-06T19:28:00.002+08:002010-03-06T19:37:52.144+08:00I can honestly say that form 5 is one of my worst year. I feel like everything is just getting out of hand. When in form 4, i can still stay on top of things if i work a bit harder. but now.. its like, no matter how hard i work, i still feel like im sinking. Am i taking on too many things? I dnt think so.. Its about the same as last year but just a few things more.. a bit more in band, in class.. thats about it. But why is everything piling up? Why am i even wasting my time so much?
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<br /><meta equiv="Content-Type" content="text/html; charset=utf-8"><meta name="ProgId" content="Word.Document"><meta name="Generator" content="Microsoft Word 11"><meta name="Originator" content="Microsoft Word 11"><link rel="File-List" href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5Cuser%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtml1%5C01%5Cclip_filelist.xml"><o:smarttagtype namespaceuri="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" name="place"></o:smarttagtype><o:smarttagtype namespaceuri="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" name="City"></o:smarttagtype><o:smarttagtype namespaceuri="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" name="country-region"></o:smarttagtype><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:worddocument> <w:view>Normal</w:View> <w:zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:punctuationkerning/> <w:validateagainstschemas/> <w:saveifxmlinvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:ignoremixedcontent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:compatibility> <w:breakwrappedtables/> <w:snaptogridincell/> <w:wraptextwithpunct/> <w:useasianbreakrules/> <w:dontgrowautofit/> <w:usefelayout/> </w:Compatibility> <w:browserlevel>MicrosoftInternetExplorer4</w:BrowserLevel> </w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:latentstyles deflockedstate="false" latentstylecount="156"> </w:LatentStyles> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if !mso]><object classid="clsid:38481807-CA0E-42D2-BF39-B33AF135CC4D" id="ieooui"></object> <style> st1\:*{behavior:url(#ieooui) } </style> <![endif]--><style> <!-- /* Font Definitions */ @font-face {font-family:SimSun; panose-1:2 1 6 0 3 1 1 1 1 1; mso-font-alt:宋体; mso-font-charset:134; mso-generic-font-family:auto; mso-font-pitch:variable; mso-font-signature:3 135135232 16 0 262145 0;} @font-face {font-family:"\@SimSun"; panose-1:2 1 6 0 3 1 1 1 1 1; mso-font-charset:134; mso-generic-font-family:auto; mso-font-pitch:variable; mso-font-signature:3 135135232 16 0 262145 0;} /* Style Definitions */ p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal {mso-style-parent:""; margin:0in; margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:12.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family:SimSun;} @page Section1 {size:8.5in 11.0in; margin:1.0in 1.25in 1.0in 1.25in; mso-header-margin:.5in; mso-footer-margin:.5in; mso-paper-source:0;} div.Section1 {page:Section1;} --> </style><!--[if gte mso 10]> <style> /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0in 5.4pt 0in 5.4pt; mso-para-margin:0in; mso-para-margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:10.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-ansi-language:#0400; mso-fareast-language:#0400; mso-bidi-language:#0400;} </style> <![endif]--> <p class="MsoNormal">A pleasant morning I bid to Ms Anusha and my lovely classmates. My speech today is about a person I look up to. Well, mine is Philip Mantofa, a pastor from <st1:place st="on"><st1:city st="on">Surabaya</st1:city>, <st1:country-region st="on">Indonesia</st1:country-region></st1:place>. He is truly someone whom I look up to and I find his stands relevant to my own.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=""> </span>Here is a little something about him. Pastor Philip was born on the 27<sup>th</sup> September 1974 to Hardi and Suzanna Mantofa. He is the second of three sons with brothers, Maxi and John. As a young boy, Philip often had seizures and was sent to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Taiwan</st1:place></st1:country-region> for treatment. At the age of 16, he went to <st1:country-region st="on">Canada</st1:country-region> to further his studies and returned to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Indonesia</st1:place></st1:country-region> some time after to serve in churches there.</p><p class="MsoNormal">
<br /></p><meta equiv="Content-Type" content="text/html; charset=utf-8"><meta name="ProgId" content="Word.Document"><meta name="Generator" content="Microsoft Word 11"><meta name="Originator" content="Microsoft Word 11"><link rel="File-List" href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5Cuser%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtml1%5C01%5Cclip_filelist.xml"><o:smarttagtype namespaceuri="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" name="place"></o:smarttagtype><o:smarttagtype namespaceuri="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" name="country-region"></o:smarttagtype><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:worddocument> <w:view>Normal</w:View> <w:zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:punctuationkerning/> <w:validateagainstschemas/> <w:saveifxmlinvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:ignoremixedcontent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:compatibility> <w:breakwrappedtables/> <w:snaptogridincell/> <w:wraptextwithpunct/> <w:useasianbreakrules/> <w:dontgrowautofit/> <w:usefelayout/> </w:Compatibility> <w:browserlevel>MicrosoftInternetExplorer4</w:BrowserLevel> </w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:latentstyles deflockedstate="false" latentstylecount="156"> </w:LatentStyles> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if !mso]><object classid="clsid:38481807-CA0E-42D2-BF39-B33AF135CC4D" id="ieooui"></object> <style> st1\:*{behavior:url(#ieooui) } </style> <![endif]--><style> <!-- /* Font Definitions */ @font-face {font-family:SimSun; panose-1:2 1 6 0 3 1 1 1 1 1; mso-font-alt:宋体; mso-font-charset:134; mso-generic-font-family:auto; mso-font-pitch:variable; mso-font-signature:3 135135232 16 0 262145 0;} @font-face {font-family:"\@SimSun"; panose-1:2 1 6 0 3 1 1 1 1 1; mso-font-charset:134; mso-generic-font-family:auto; mso-font-pitch:variable; mso-font-signature:3 135135232 16 0 262145 0;} /* Style Definitions */ p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal {mso-style-parent:""; margin:0in; margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:12.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family:SimSun;} @page Section1 {size:8.5in 11.0in; margin:1.0in 1.25in 1.0in 1.25in; mso-header-margin:.5in; mso-footer-margin:.5in; mso-paper-source:0;} div.Section1 {page:Section1;} --> </style><!--[if gte mso 10]> <style> /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0in 5.4pt 0in 5.4pt; mso-para-margin:0in; mso-para-margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:10.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-ansi-language:#0400; mso-fareast-language:#0400; mso-bidi-language:#0400;} </style> <![endif]--> <p class="MsoNormal">There are many aspects to him that I like; his randomness, his boldness and his love for God and people. However, of all the aspects that I like about him I would like to talk about his love life. This is one topic that I find very interesting.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=""> </span>First off, he married his wife, Irene Sapphira, in August 1999. A big part of their courting relationship is carried our long-distance with Philip in <st1:country-region st="on">Canada</st1:country-region> and Irene in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Indonesia</st1:place></st1:country-region>. They first met each other at the age of 14 and it was love at first sight, though nothing happened till much later. They both knew the risk of long-distance relationships and Philip only goes back to <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Indonesia</st1:place></st1:country-region> two to three times annually. Imagine, only being able to see your loved one a few periods in a year. However, their relationship is blessed by God and they are now happily married with three kids after dating for four years. </p> <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=""> </span>Secondly, although he is a pastor of many churches, he is still a humble person. One would think that a man with as much publicity as him would be proud and stuck up but he is exactly the opposite and he is quite romantic too. This is part of a song that he wrote for his Irene:</p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 99pt; text-align: center;"><i style="">How can I tell you<o:p></o:p></i></p><div> </div><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 99pt; text-align: center;"><i style="">How much I love want to be your best friend forever will be<o:p></o:p></i></p><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 99pt; text-align: center;"><i style="">How can I show you how precious you are to me<o:p></o:p></i></p><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 99pt; text-align: center;"><i style="">So precious forever will be<o:p></o:p></i></p><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 99pt; text-align: center;"><i style="">Will you give your love to me?<o:p></o:p></i></p><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 99pt; text-align: center;"><i style="">Will you give your heart to me?<o:p></o:p></i></p><div style="text-align: center;"> </div><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 99pt; text-align: center;"><i style="">Irene, forever will be..</i></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="margin-left: 99pt;">
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Wow, i didn't knw steph really likes steamboat. haha.. so semangat punya makan:D<br /><br />While eating, Riza and Mizan came. So shy la dierang.. lol.. Thank God, Mizan's here to finish the food.. hihi.. nice one:) And riza finished all the chachos.. haha.<br /><br />For those that didn't come, its ok.. there's always a next time:)<br />Thanks for all who came, for all who took the trouble to look for my hse and everything. I hope you had a good time too:)zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-36375766418926403462010-02-11T18:16:00.002+08:002010-02-11T18:19:12.360+08:00See the rawness<br />See the deep cuts<br />See the scars<br />The scabs, the pain..<br /><br />Where can i hide?<br />What else can i do?<br />El-Shaddai..You know.zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-81486434712950356282010-02-11T17:19:00.002+08:002010-02-11T17:33:42.454+08:00Here comes the feeling like im missing out on a lot again. but i guess its ok. everyone misses out on something.. Im so tired these days. homework is a big pile of paper. Die la you, steph when you come bck frm auzzie.. haha..'<br /><br />im stil very tired.zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-12814660539581871632010-01-28T16:58:00.002+08:002010-01-28T17:06:48.179+08:00January is fast coming to an end[with a birthday right at the very last day:)]. I do feel sad in a sense that im getting old. Yes, i do say that a lot. haha.. but what hits me the most is that my teen years are fading fast and whatever 'great things' that im gonna do after that certain age would just be normal. Those 'great things' would be something that is expected of us, no longer the things that measure extrordinary heights. How la?<br /><br /><br />But honestly... Have we been doing greater things?zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-36223835135935467242010-01-28T16:48:00.002+08:002010-01-28T16:57:24.392+08:00I wonder what it means to be a lover?<br />People say that forbidden fruits taste the sweetest.<br />Is it true?<br />Is it sweeter than pure love?<br />Is it sweeter than Him?<br /><br /><br /><span><span style="font-style: italic;">We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home.</span> Do we dare to love out loud? Knowing that sometimes our sincere actions can cause ridicule? Perhaps, the sooner we get over the fear, the sooner we can be like Christ..<br /></span>zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-64770037868315484802010-01-13T19:04:00.003+08:002010-02-20T22:54:04.002+08:00<p style="font-style: italic;"><strong>Look to the skies hope arise<br />See His majesty revealed<br />More than this life there is love<br />There is hope and this is real</strong></p> <p style="text-align: justify; font-style: italic;"><strong>Cause I dont need to see it to believe it<br />I dont need to see it to believe it<br />Cause I cant shake this fire burning</strong></p><p style="text-align: justify; font-style: italic;"><strong>Deep inside my heart</strong></p><p><br /><strong></strong></p><p><strong><span style="font-weight: normal;">I feel very shallow right now, like how everything i think and do comes straight without given second thought. I guess i've been too focused on the world recently and im not <span style="font-style: italic;">there</span> with God as i should be. <span style="font-style: italic;">this fire burning deep inside my heart.. </span>There's practically no fire. God, bring me back to where i should be with You.. where's my fire? where's my focus? where's Your name in my life?</span></strong></p><p><br /><strong><span style="font-weight: normal;"></span></strong></p><p><br /><strong><span style="font-weight: normal;"></span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="font-weight: normal;">Bring me back bring me back bring me back.</span></strong></p><p><strong><span style="font-weight: bold;">There is hope and this is real</span><br /></strong></p>zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-57548120290408751272010-01-13T18:45:00.003+08:002010-01-13T18:53:39.033+08:00about everything..School has been crazy. On the first day itself, i've already started planning. haha.. although the truth is that i should've already started planning. I've come to realise that i have many many more areas to work on, especially when it comes to leading a big group of people. Its not always easy coz im the type where i try to avoid conflict the best i can. Im pro-peace:) In a situation where there's more than one opinion, conflict would most definately arise. Therefore, in a big group... sighs.. conflict much?<br /><br />hurmm..<br />but actually, there isnt much of a conflict. our biggest problem is just getting the job done.<br /><br />i want us to make mr koh, more than anybody else, proud of us.zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-34646749318324511622010-01-03T14:29:00.002+08:002010-01-03T14:35:51.667+08:00New Year mou?Hello:)<br /><br />'09 has been a wonderful year to say the least. Im gonna miss it.<br /><br />Thank You for the amazing year, for the friends, the food, the things, family and YC. Thanks for showing me these people that i've come to know and cherish, like really <span style="font-style: italic;">really</span> cherish:) Thanks for showing me that there are greater things that we can do and not just sit around saying, "How I wish I could do that." I guess those days are over. Now, we can no longer say that we didnt know. Now, we can no longer say that we dont care coz You've turned our hearts. Thank You...<br /><br /><br />With all the things that i've got to know in '09, lets just give a toast to healthy relationships:)zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-38698795892194329942009-12-20T19:59:00.003+08:002009-12-20T20:58:20.679+08:00RevAmp '09Its 8pm and im now back at home, sitting in front of the computer. It's a very strange feeling. After the amazingly awesome 7 days of constant companionship, being alone makes me feel strange. There's huge bunch of people in church where i can freely mix around and get to know and when i go back home, there's always Sarah with the little croonies:) Like i said, constant companionship:)<br /><br />About this time in conference, we'd be starting session now. sigh.. ps rose, ps guy, ps daniel.. nice:) i want more<br /><br />i miss revAmp:(<br /><br />I signed up for poverty and environment. I think i wouldnt wanna go anywhere else:) all the crazy stuff that we did.. haha.. We went for Alicia Loh's book launch, voter's registeration in Subang Parade, gotong royong in USJ 3 and planted trees in USJ 2.<br /><br />At first, it never crossed my mind that we're actually doing something that would impact our society. Never. I just thought, "Oh, nice. Let's do it." But with everything all said and done, I really do think that we did impact our society one way or another. You see, i didnt believe that what we did was on the road to greater things but when Rose recapped all that we did, I somehow felt hopeful that we did make a difference. And now, im quite positive:) God works in mysterious ways, no?<br /><br />Of all the things that we did, i think the hardest was the voters registeration.<br /><br />Now i know how a salesperson feels like. The feeling of trying to sell your product but ended up with rude responses and countless rejection. There were about 70+ of us going around Subang Parade trying to get eligable voters to sign up as voters. You could see us walking around everywhere:)<br /><br />Then, we got stopped by the security guards.<br /><br />Quite exciting but irritated. Anyways, we had to stop for a bit, reduced the amount of people and continued working:) sad to say that im one of the courageless people. But i stayed around and helped encourage them! haha. But seriously, they were great:) candice, maka, galvin, ian, nathan, clement, mandy, adriel, cat:) good job! In the end, we got 68 people to sign up. quite a small number but im positive that we've increased awareness among the people there:)<br /><br />And thank God that we had a chance to do them all.<br /><br />As expected, i've learnt more about me mates. Especially about sarah, i might never knw the things i knw now if she hadn't stayed in my house.. The chance might not arise in another time. Im really glad u came, sarah:) And about Ian.. WALIAU. i never knew this guy could crack such lame jokes ok.. and to top it off, seven days with both ian and jofan.. <span style="font-size:130%;">whoaaa..</span> we've all been resurracted many <span style="font-style: italic;">many</span> times. haha:P It was all good fun:)<br /><br /><br /><br />I love worship sessions. I love it and i want more..<br /><br />We look to Yahweh Yahweh<br />Our hope is Yahweh Yahweh<br /><br />And i've found my gungho serving partners:D<br />sarah.ian.galvin=)<br />haha.. wanna serve moU? Yea, through this conference I've learnt that there's always an opportunity to serve others. You just have to always look out for it. The fact is, opportunities to serve others are always there.. Let's do it!<br /><br />Lets just pray that revAmp brings us to greater things..<br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">"I am telling you the truth: those who believe in me will do what i do -yes, </span><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" >they will do even greater things</span><span style="font-weight: bold;"> because I am going to the Father." -John 14:12</span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: left;"><br /><br />Amen:)<br /></div></div>zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-39669254869103018362009-12-12T14:21:00.004+08:002009-12-12T14:28:50.231+08:00YC moU?hello:)<br /><br />how are you today?:)<br /><br />weird? i knw:)<br /><br />*********<br /><br />i just came back from sel's blog and read about her mission trip blog debriefing. its always awesome to read how people felt throughout trips like that.<br /><br />to sel and all you form2s that might be reading this, i love to see the fire, the eagerness in you:) im just gonna pray that you'd begin to step up in yc coz yc is <span style="font-style: italic;">our</span> place. <span style="font-weight: bold;">youth church</span>. a congregation of youth. if we dont step up, who will?<br /><br />lets risezkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-41136229964189551432009-12-09T19:16:00.002+08:002009-12-09T19:37:24.487+08:00New MoonAt first, I promised myself that i wouldn't watch New Moon. This was due to the fact that i might go crazyy again and yea, its hard to stop the craziness. However, all thanks to Fatin, i found myself sitting in Cinema 1 with NM starting in 2minueto. sigh. But thank God that im still sane:)<br /><br />The movie wasn't that bad actually. Although the thing still looked spastic if compared to the book, i find it quite.. ok:) Too little Emmet though:( oh well, like what eera said, the movie cant satisfy <span style="font-style: italic;">everyone</span>.<br /><br />******<br /><br />Its now December. Reflection time moU?<br /><br />Although i've been involved in many pretty cool events this year, i cant help but feel like i've squandered my time away. I havent check back on which goals that i've achieved, i hope it'll be most of it. I want more, like how i felt after the rally with Philip Mantofa. I want more. It didn't felt like it ended there. But i also definately didnt feel like i've done much after that either. sigh. Perhaps its meant to be continued..<br /><br />Form4 has definately taught me many many things. Like how not to judge a book by its cover. People that i've arrogantly thought that "were not worth my time" has turned out to be great friends. Im sorry for ever thinking like that.<br /><br />I also realised that with age comes the responsibility. Responsibility as a leader, as a student, as a person itself. No more being vague with details, no more just-follow-the-seniors, no more ignorance towards careful planning. Everything has to be planned out in details. From planning things for band, YC events or shopping outings even. No escape. So far, I havent been able to meet my dad's standard of Extreme Planning. But i guess when i get there, i'd be happier coz then he wont have to nag me=.=<br /><br />Oh well, life's a journey, right?zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-62083343734645038352009-11-30T14:09:00.002+08:002009-11-30T14:12:21.307+08:00Is this all there is to life? Go through school, futher education, jobs, get married, have kids?<br />And then what? Aim for a promotion? Become CEO? Become grandparents?<br /><br />There must be more to life than this.zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-36383657297931780332009-11-29T17:53:00.002+08:002009-11-29T18:15:54.118+08:00Seperated -UsherRye introduced me this song last time<br />am still loving it:)<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/O6RdJD_hjAs&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/O6RdJD_hjAs&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />If love was a bird then we wouldn't have our wings<br />If love was the sky we'd be blue<br />If love was a choir, you and I could never sing<br />'cause love isn't for me and you<br />If love was an Oscar, you and I could never win<br />'cause we could never act out our parts<br />If love is the bible, then we are lost in sin<br />Because it's not in our hearts<br /><br />(chorus)<br />So why don't you go your way,<br />and I'll go mine<br />Live ur life<br />And I'll live mine<br />Baby, you'd do well<br />And I'll be fine<br />'cause we're better off separated...<br /><br />If love was a fire then we have lost the spark<br />Love never felt so cold<br />If love was a light then we're lost in the dark<br />Left with no one to hold<br />If love was a sport, we're not on the same team<br />You and I are destined to lose<br />If love was an ocean, baby, we are just a stream<br />'cause love isn't for me and you<br /><br />(chorus)<br /><br />Girl, I know we had some good times<br />It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye<br />Girl you know I love you<br />I can't deny<br />Can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I<br /><br />I know it hurts so much<br />But it's best for us<br />Somewhere along this windy road, we lost the trust<br />So I walk away, so you don't have to see me cry<br />It's killing me so, why don't you go<br />(chorus)<br />(out)<br />I'm sorry we didn't make it.zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-12426274588641331652009-11-27T18:05:00.002+08:002009-11-27T18:20:00.770+08:00I went to play with fire.<br />Pain pain now.<br />Ouch ouch<br /><br /><br />I really wish i could tell you right now.. but i cant. sorry..<br />yeap..i should have just said nothing.<br />i feel like puking.zkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-32473798294669028962009-11-21T07:55:00.001+08:002009-11-21T08:09:26.879+08:00i will run to You,Lord<br />Help me try<br />Jesus i need you<br />only You know why<br />how can i live without You<br />I'm falling with every step i take<br />i need You<br />i need Youzkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6367061757237334789.post-48706233746698794492009-11-17T20:28:00.002+08:002009-11-17T20:33:52.441+08:008th November -CBN's 110th dinner. Band escorted the VIPs into the hall. Was a first experience for all of the members. tak pernah buat basically.. haha.. But people said that it was ok la.. bangga:)<br /><br />14th November -YKPM Prima Selayang's Family Day. Despite feeling reluctant about the whole thing in the morning, I really did enjoy myself. People there was just really cooperative and cheerful crowd:) I was really tired after that but still was worth it! Also there was CF barbeque at Elenor's place. wow the condo is pretty:) like a semi hotel. Rebecca and i had barbequed eyeballs.. hahazkayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18183870861306657773noreply@blogger.com0